"just man up"

i'll be completely honest: i've been slacking. i could be so much further down the road by now but i've been distracted by the petty shit in life. i just really suck at prioritizing and a lot of the times i value short-lived pleasure over long-term satisfaction. i guess that's my biggest problem...being too much of a "in-the-moment," "go-with-the-flow" kind of person. i go with the flow when the flow has no destination so i just end up floating and rotting in stagnant waters. but this has got to stop. i'm a woman with goals in life. with determination. with drive. i have passions. dreams. desires. i need to stop wasting my time and make sure these dreams are realized and see to it that my goals come into fruition. i can't stand being stuck in this slump anymore...i want to live my life as it's supposed to be lived--with fervor and a purpose.

all of this means one thing: i'm going to have to cut out a lot of useless shit from my life. sacrifices. i guess i don't know much about them. i've been blessed and fortunate to say the least. but i'm going to have to make a lot of sacrifices if i want to do what i want to do. i've been naive enough to place importance on the most hopeless shit in my life that aren't going anywhere...but now i know better (i think.) i need to grow the fuck up, acknowledge the truth even if it hurts (because in my heart i know too well what the truth is), and move on. and that is exactly what i will do.

and if anyone has a problem with that, they can go fuck themselves for all i care.